Keep & Toss - and mess inside my head
So keeping with the spirits that it is January, and it is the beginning of a new year, I would like to bring up the subject of spring cleaning. Now I think this is my mothers favourite time of the year, she lives for this, and especially when it comes to my cleaning. Now, I am what you would call disorganised, but I have an organised mess. But since it is the new year, I think I have the same mood as most people, out with the old and in with the new. I am a sucker for throwing things out, I mean, I keep movie tickets, business cards, receipts, etc. I mean I keep pretty much everything. And of course after a week (or so...) I throw them out, but the problem is that I start horting and then the piles of papers just builds up, this goes for physical possessions as well as relationships in my personal life.
I want to take away everything that has left me with a bad memory and/or everything that has brought me bad luck. Now, I generally have a lot of bad luck - for me Friday the 13th is basically everyday, but I believe that now, since I am changing so many of my bad habits, that bad luck will hopefully change. I mean it is as simple as getting rid of empty relationships, I think as we get older you do not need that many people around; for instance: it is better to have three good friends than 20 bad ones. I am 24 years old and today I probably have three girls that truly confine in. I have had a lot of friends in the past that as soon as I told them something, they would go and tell everyone else - hence why my life is so public. I mean there are some aspects in my life that I want to keep private but for the rest, if people have nothing better to do then I don't care. Don't get me wrong, I love me some good gossip but then everything depends what you do with that gossip, and from experience gossip (90%) of the time is so exaggerated and by spreading it, you might end up hurting people more than you think. But I am not going to throw rocks in a glass house, I have done my fair share of gossiping as well. So now back to tossing, I am cleaning out my apartment, throwing out (donating) clothes; selling clothes, bags and shoes, to get rid of everything. As I said in my first post this year: New Year, New Me.
Bi**h don't kill my vibe
So I am tossing:
- Everything I have twice as many as I need: Everything I have duplicates of.
- Items that are not worth repairing: zippers, trousers, shirts, chargers, everything!
- Everything my gut says to loose. I am not going to second guess my instincts due to the fact that, that is why I am in this mess in the first place.
- Things I don't remember what why are used for anymore.
Things I am keeping:
- Items that make me happy
- Things that fit my lifestyle and the lifestyle that I want to have
- Items that I have room for: I mean I live in an apartment of 60 meters squared, and I need all the space I can get - therefore adios clutter!
I am the kind of person that is super influential, I really have to pick and choose the people I have around me because I don't necessarily have a limit as to what I should do and what I should not be doing. In other words, my moral compass is not always pointing to the North, which can be an issue... I am a people-person, so for my it is difficult to cut people out of my life. I forgive and forget things way too easy and that lands me in sticky situations most of the time. With the new year this is also going to change. As for the lists above (what to toss and what to keep) I am going to do the same with people around me. I need to, 100%, surround myself with like-minded, ambitious and passionate people so that I can "flourish" as well, no more hanging out with people who pull me down.
Ok so on another note...
I am getting looking into getting tested for ADHD on February 23, 2017. This is something that is long overdue, since I was suppose to get tested when I was in high school but for some reason I pushed it to the side, and convinced myself that I do not have it (and who knows, I might not actually have it). So when people think about ADHD they most likely think of someone who is hyperactive and someone who cannot concentrate on tasks for a long time. However, there are three different types of ADHD and, surprise surprise, I have most of the characteristics. But then again, I might not have it.
When I first got approached to get tested for ADHD - I immediately pushed it to the side, and I have been doing that for the past eight (!) years. Now I feel that I am at a stage in my life that I need to know what is wrong inside my head, so that I can get the right medication. Anyways, I will let you all know how it goes!