I'm just a 'simple', or what I would like to call simple, 25 year old girl. I am on of those girls that has cried wolf with the 'L' word way too many times. Throughout my upbringing, I've had this constant need for attention and mistaken acts for kindness for love and fallen flat on my face several times. I don't think Ive ever understood the true meaning of that word, until I met you.
After my internship finished in January 2017, I swore off guys (in a very broad sense). I decided to not get my self into another relationship unless I knew that that relationship had a future. I told myself I was going to date and enjoy my last few months as a carefree 24 year old Swedish business student and stop searching for "Mr. Right" and as soon as I turn 25 it is time to get serious. Little did I know that on the 2nd of February I would like a photo on Instagram that has so far changed the course of my life.
How many photos have we not liked, of people we don't know, random people. We double tap and don't think twice when doing it. That one double tap on the 2nd of February has changed me. Little did I know that 5 months later we would meet in real life and that we would be sitting and planning the foreseeing future together.
If you asked me in February if I thought that we would ever meet, I would have said no. And I definitely did think that we would develop these feelings for each other.
In the short time that we've spent together you have taught me more about myself than anyone else has in 25 years. You have managed to turn my somewhat pessimistic view of the world into something positive. You see me for what I am and accept it. You've taught me that there are so many solutions to one problem - that the world is not only black and white. You have managed to change my outlook on life and made me want to become a better person. And for the first time - I can feel a change both mentally and physically.
I am fully aware that we've known each other for a split second, but this doesn't worry me. I would not change anything. If anything the way we met and how our relationship has evolved in such a short time, with the distance between us, has allowed us to get closer in a different way and at a different pace.
I might be 25 and naive and you might be a little bit older and more experience - I know you see this as a weakness but I see it as one of our strengths. My "naiv-ness" will allow you to explore new ideas and possibilities that you would probably turn down due to past experiences. I have nothing to compare this to since I have never felt this way about anyone... ever.
Before you it was mostly grey clouds and rain, but since you entered it has been sun and blue skies everyday. You were like a heat wave that I never saw coming. You're the favourite part of my day. Just a simple smile or looking into your eyes gives me the energy to overcome any obstacle put in my way. I have become addicted to your positivity and outlook of life. I know that I can continue my life without you and be perfectly fine, but after these two months I know that I just don't want to. Whatever the future has in store for us, I just want you to know that I will always cherish you. I will always be thankful for the moments I've spent with you. And that whenever I am not by your side you will always be in my heart.